Pose. Smile.Next!

Never look like what you've been through.... God is still good!

Life is like a camera. Just focus on what’s important, capture the good times, develop from the negatives, and if things don’t turn out – take another shot.

   

Celebrating

Today is my mom and Tommy's anniversary!
 It's amazing how as a kid, you want your parent's to stay together, regardless of the state of the relationship.
My parent's divorce was one of the best things that ever happened to us.
I gained awesome step-parents! They both made great choices in their current mates.
How lucky am I? 24 years going strong!Their love allows me to believe in love, the like each other and are friends. Love is hard to believe in when we live in a world, were sex is easier to get than love. Yeah I'm celebrating because I still believe.

Happy Birthday PawPaw!

 My Grandpa Louis, had to be the coolest guy ever!
He passed away when I was 19. It was my sophmore year in college.
I was his first grand. I remember my mom called me on October 14, 1999.
She said "We are all going to the Dr. with Daddy on the 18th, the Dr. said his lungs were dark and he may have lung cancer." I felt empty, lost and that night I sat down and made a list of everything I could accomplish before the inevitable. That week I saw one of my uncles and told him what my mom told me..... I knew he wasn't handling it well. And of all the people to call me to confirm the bad news, it was him. It was a quick, yet painful stab in the heart. He left a voicemail and I knew he had been stabbed as well, I didn't take it personal. I went back to Arkansas for Christmas and we got to spend his last days with him. He wasn't the same and I was already missing him. The outpouring of love and support from friends, family and community was stellar. My grandpa was amazing, no other word(s) could describe him. He and my grandma taught us so much.

If you can eat, you can always feed someone.
If you take care of people, they will always take care you,
Love and protect your family, you are all you have!
Know where you come from and appreciate your heritage.
Be proud of who you are and don't take wooden nickels.

I miss him so much.

He passed away January 2, 2000 from lung cancer.
The opening line to his eulogy preached by his brother was "Have you ever met a ship too big for the water?" I think that was a very accurate description.

Happy Birthday PawPaw!

Empowered!

 Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of what you do about it!
You can't let the little things stop you, there are more to come.
No matter how big or little, keep moving!!!
Grab your shovel and keep on diggin!

Changed

It's funny how you begin to get what you pray for and hate the box the gift comes in, or hate the wrapping paper, which makes us negotiate the pleasure of that gift.

I've been changed for the better, the worse, the different...... I've been changed.
On August 18, 2013 I had, had a really good day!
I went out to eat with a friend and hung out with a new friend and I was happy!
Made it home around 12am and around 1215 I heard gunshots about 4 to 5.
I called my neighbor to see if he had heard them and he wasn't home.
So around 12:30 I heard alot of gunshots, them seemed pretty close so I got on the ground.
All of a sudden I hear screams and I run to the door.....
To see one of my neighbors bloody on the ground about 5 steps from my door.
I watched him take his last breath, there is something about watching some die that changes you.
You will never be the you, you once were and you better strive to be a better than you could have imagine.
A matter of seconds and he was gone and the sound of him taking his last breath is one that plays in my head like my favorite song. That sound is tattooed there and I'll never forget it. Life is so fragile, so precious and regardless of who you are and what you do, you are loved and will be missed.
I said all that to say, I'm grateful, this change was necessary but unfavorable in it's occurance and the abruptness for change. They also shot my car in the crossfire, but had my car not been there, they would have shot into my apartment. I have all my pieces in the same functioning order and God still moves stones. I'm grateful. I have a shovel and I'm digging harder, smarter and with much more passion. I suggest you do the same. But whatever you chose, just be grateful!

My hopes

I hope I’ve inspired you to keep diggin, no matter what!

I hope I’ve inspired you to keep diggin, no matter what!

The meeting of the haters and disgruntled..... I've met them both!

Establish yourself

I thought this was interesting.

a visionary!

 

 

Remember someone invented beanie babies!!!!

Never think an idea is stupid, it could be your big break!

Write the vision make it plain.

Grab your shovel and keep on diggin!

Looking for loyalty

Being a single woman with established independence, here is my petition!

Welcoming progress....

 

 If you can't change the people around you, change the people around you!

Able to use my gifts

 

 We have all been given a vision and they can all make us "successful, depending on what we do when our eyes are open. No time to sleep on dreams, when reality is waiting!