Inspired

I have to have some of the most talented friends ever!!!!
I love art and artists in all shapes, colors, fashions, mediums.
Poets, actors, musicians, writers, dancers, singers, comics, cooks and parents.
Yes! I did say parents.
Mamas are the best! Dads are just as awesome!
My mom is probably hands down my best friend.
I can remember a time where all I wanted to do was create, act, and act again.
Most artists arent traditional thinkers, we will starve for our art.
A real job is for people who are either boring or prefer stability.
I've always been one who was going to make it happen by any means necessary.
Anything I believe in enough to pursue, Ill see it through.
My mom would always say you shouldnt do this, you shouldnt do that.
Because she loves stability, I on the other hand love what I love and whatever that entails.
When I was 25 I was went to MD for an audition, for Mo'Niques Fat Chance.
A plus sized beauty pageant that was about uplifting full figured women.
I knew I was a shoe-in! I got there and I didn't make it. I gained an experience though.

Later on that year, I turned 26 and my mom got me the best card ever!!!!
It read "Daughter our thoughts and ideas don't always coincide but whatever you decide to do, you go for it and it makes me want to yell, Hey world look at my daughter isn't she amazing!"


That is truly the best card that I've ever received.
I knew then that she didn't always agree, but she respected it and even supported my madness.
We all need cheerleaders to keep us inspired, motivated and remind us we are loved.
She never told me what I couldn't do, she has always allowed me to be me and supported me regardless.

I'm so inspired..... (still diggin' I get it... in due time)

Growing....

In life, we make some not so wise decisions.

I remember when I first moved here to TX, I was living with someone and it became a bad situation and I had to move quickly.

People will always show you who they are, believe them. When they can’t have what they desire of you, the drama starts. It’s even more apparent when they send in “fairies” to do the dirty work.

I allow everyone to be extraordinary until they prove themselves otherwise.

But once you prove who/what you are that will forever be my perception of you, good or bad!!!!

I love everyone but I don’t friend everyone.

I’m so selective about the company I keep and those that I allow close to me.

We have to protect ourselves. We must continue to pray that God guides us and sends the right people.

We become what we attract and we should strive to attract more and better.

Be dumb like a fox, pay attention to everything and make a slow, quiet exit from things that you need not be associated with. The company you keep can put you in bad place, physically, mentally, spiritually, financially, emotionally. People who do exactly what they want to do and don’t care about the consequences don’t care enough about themselves to value you either. Love yourself enough to know that you matter and their drama can spill over into your life too by being too close to their madness.

Be with people who love, cherish and celebrate you. Dreams are accomplished by a team!

Hang around people, who are smarter than you, it’s the only way you can grow.

If you are the smartest person you know, your circle needs to change into something that elevates you.

There is nothing wrong with not knowing, but everything is wrong with not growing!

Finished with one and on to the next

Last night I wrapped up shooting my first project.
And we watched a few clips and this indescribable joy/peace came over me.
I couldn't believe it was me, I really couldn't believe it was me.
I cried all the way home.
I remember last year, I went to a film festival called and saw a film called "In the Hive."
It was Michael Clarke Duncan's last film before he passed.
It was truly an amazing film by the very talented Robert Townsend.
That's the best movie, I've ever seen in my life. I cried while giving commentary (LOL)
I got to meet him and a few other celebrities that weekend.
Robert and I even sat and talked for a little while.
He was talking about climbing Mt. Kilamanjaro and how it's so high that you have to climb it at night. No one's allowed to climb it during the day you can see down and have a higher possibility of falling. It took 7 days to climb, and he had a bottle of champagne and planned on having a party when he got to the top. During the climb, they encountered mud, that was 2 feet deep and they climbed in the mud for two days. After the mud was the peaceful, serene, experience he was hoping for and the view was worth it's weight in gold. He wanted to turn around after a while, but he committed to the climb and made it to the top.
Once he got there, all he could do was break down and cry.

If we commit to whatever it is that we dream of and pray for, we have to know that there's going to be some mud involved. But if you keep climbing, it will be worth it's weight in gold.

I've been working on this opportunity for a long time, with no idea what I was aiming for.
I'm getting there and that's one thing I'm certain of.... I'm on my way.

I start shooting my next project this weekend and I'm more excited than I was about the first one.
So much has happened, I'm getting my legs back and it feels amazing.
I've learned so much, cried a lot and gained more, God is awesome. I'm grateful!

A Little Sleepy

Yesterday I filmed my new project. (the first of many) and it was awesome!
So in about a month or so Ill be able to finally show it and talk about it.
I'm so grateful. I'm a busy woman on my way to making my dreams, reality.
It's amazing how our dreams change as we grow older.
Our big dreams dwindle to something much more comfortable as soon as adversity appears.
If we look at adversity as strength training, our perceptions will become clearer.
The why me's, become try me's. And the try me's become, OK Jesus I'm not the only one who needs your attention LOL..... I've been through every emotion with God. I'm human and at my best and worst, I'm still loved and there have been times where I've truly been unloveable.
There are two years of my life, that I wouldn't repeat, they were truely strengthening.
I faced everything, job loss, death, eviction,disconnectioned utilities, and I could keep going.
But God, through all of it, kept me.
I can't tell you how many times, I wanted to quit.
I wanted to give up, move back to Arkansas and this dream I dreamt could have been just that.
I was angry, tired, frustrated and I hated life.
All I kept thinking is, I know God didn't bring me this far to drop me off.
One thing that kept me going was, an old gospel song by James Cleveland "I Don't Feel No Ways Tired"

"I don't feel no ways tired
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me, the road would be easy
I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me."

I'm overjoyed at the great things that are taking place.
I'm about to launch my BBQ sauce line.
I'm the sole owner of the company.
I am in a great place.


Still diggin' through the dookey, I might be closer than I think. I know the diamonds there. ( I get it... in due time)

Of Faith and Patience.

Hey guys, sorry I missed you yesterday.
Yesterday was my first day shooting my new webisodes.
I'm doing a pound cake project (mini loaf) for a web company.
It was really cool, and really high tech. Alot more than I anticipated.
But once I got over the fear of not knowing, it became natural to me.
I can't wait to see the episodes once the editing is done.
I go back tomorrow to film the remainders.
I'll keep you posted.


Anywho, I took a friend car shopping this week.
We've gone a couple of times and the first day, was us dealing with a shady car saleman.
He had the car she wanted, for a decent price. It wasn't a decent car, it sounded like a tractor and should have started smoking once started driving. I in good faith could not allow her to purchase such a mistake.
So we looked at another car and it was a little more and ran well, but it need some serious interior attention.
Well he wouldn't come down off the price, so we grabbed our purses and hit the door.... hit the door... hit the door.... LOL. I guess I just felt like singing.
So we went back looking at another dealership last night and the exact same car that she wanted, she got.
The payments are lower than she wanted to pay, it has a warranty and all that jazz that makes us happy about a purchase. When we went in, she said she felt so defeated and we prayed. And then we got an awesome sales person. She test drove it and everything, however she didnt get to drive it home because all of the insurance places were closed. We will pick it up today.


However, I said all of that to say, if we take our time and trust our gut instincts, usually we get something better. But when we rush, we get less than we settle for.
At the age of 32 I see life so much clearer, so differently.
All the things that I thought I knew, I question if I ever knew.
Age truly makes you wiser, and patience truly blesses you with the desires you've prayed for.
I've been in Texas for 5 years, and it has not been the kindest of places.
But through the laughter, tears and highs, lows..... I wouldn't trade anything for the "me" I've gained.
The journey to self discovery is a hard but necessary road. Growth and change are inevitable, sometimes those two are your biggest enemies/nightmares. This is where the serenity prayer is worth it's weight in gold.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
No matter what you do or who you are, be amazing!

Keep digging, the diamond is really in there!

I believe I can, so I will...

Today is one of those days. One of those days where all I want to do is lay in the bed and do as much of nothing as I can find. But with the gifts and talents God has given me. Being lazy is one action I can't afford. There is too much to do. I have been blessed with the right people at the right time in the right place. I'm grateful. I parted ways with a group of business partners about 6 months ago. Unsure of what would happen and how it would play out, I stepped out on faith and the right people continued to fall in my lap. I'm grateful. They were constant reminders that I had the talent to do it, I just needed the courage and to let go of all that I was holding to work faster and receive better. I followed their instructions and the doors have continued to open. I'm living my dream, I'm on my way.
I believe that music has a way of helping you through the dark days. We have to find a song that helps us when we are struggling to keep our sanity. One of my favorites is "In Due Time" by Outkast and Cee-Lo Green. That song is gospel to me and it has truly changed my life and makes my dark days a little brighter.


Just keep your faith in me,
Don't act impatiently
You'll get where you need to be
In due time
Even when things are slow
Hold on and don't let go
I'll give you what I owe
In due time

Diggin through the dookey to get to the diamond.... (I get it "In Due Time)                                                                                                                                        

Getting there.

Starting a business is alot of work. I can truly say I'm living my dream. This week I start filming and I can't wait!!!! All that I've ever wanted to do was cook and act. I get the best of both with my next project. I'm grateful. It's amazing how God does things and you think you've reached the end of the rope, because you can't figure out his plan. Having faith in Him allows you to hold on, knowing that better is coming. Sometimes better takes it's sweet time getting to you. Keep believing in Him, knowing he is bigger than you and the current circumstance.  Diggin through the dookey to get to the diamond.... you get it "In Due Time."